Chapter 183: You Are Worth Every Sacrifice
[JER]
"You're defending the woman who took my child, husband."
"No, baby. I am not defending her. I didn't know she would come. I didn't even know that Ruiya would come here. I didn't know and that makes it even hard, because everyone has been dependent on me, and I don't know what the fuck I am to do!
"What should I tell you, huh? That I will find her and try to kill her for you? That I will strangle the life out of her? That I will avenge you?" Jer asked frustratedly.
He was trying to make things work but at this rate, he would lose his mind before he even got to the bottom of everything. Hawi showing up had shocked him too and she hadn't counted on that.
Sure, she had messed his family up, but the Hawi he knew was dangerous, easily more dangerous than the rulers of the realm combined. And that was when she was just a regular world.
Now she was a white wolf and Jer knew that she had a protector around here because since birth, every wolf was taught of the white wolves and their protectors.
Jer wasn't sure he could handle Hawi's protector, much less Hawi herself. Granted he would try his very best but even he was hoping that his best really was the best because he didn't want to lose his Malika.
He loved her. He adored this woman. He hated to see her cry but he had made her cry. He had broken her heart so many times in just twenty-four hours and he wasn't sure if there was ever a way for him to come back from that.
The previous days should have been a happier one, just him and his Luna on a date, enjoying whatever life gave them and yet it had turned so disastrous that Jer couldn't believe that it had happened.
Yesterday's occurrences looked like nightmares and the Alpha was shopping to wake up soon, but then there was no waking up from this. It was as real as it could get and the sooner they faced it, the sooner he could try to come up with a way out.
But was there a way out?
"Yes!!! She took something from me, so you must take something from her. You heard Rukiya. She called your ex her mate. That has to be something!!" Malika shouted seeing as Jer was raising his voice at her.
Malika looked frustrated and she was.
She was a woman without a woman, and while her husband was staring at her confused or even shocked that she had a voice, she was determined to prove that meek Malika would also have something.
And that meek Malika wasn't just a carpet for people to step on. If Jer couldn't get a handle on his psychotic ex, then maybe meek Malika would step up, right? But it was a crazy situation, and Jer was right to be shocked.
He had never heard her like that. She was always talking with her voice low, and just now, she had shouted, and stared at him with so much anger in her eyes that she was scared for a moment.
It was like he had created a monster, but wasn't that what his precious Russel had done when they failed to protect meek Malika?
"It's not that easy!" Jer insisted as she got up from the bed and began pacing. He had spent the entire night going over everything that had happened and even to this point, he wasn't sure what could have triggered such cruelty.
"If you won't do it, then I will," Malika said, her voice cold and so threatening that Jer had to stop pacing and look at his broken wife again. He couldn't believe this was happening.
He had never once fought with his wife and now it seemed like she was way beyond the limits of her pattern etc. But he couldn't blame her, she had endured far worse than any normal woman would.
She had been patient with him and all she got in return was a shattered heart, a heart that knew nothing and a heart so empty.
"What?" Jer asked as he walked closer to his Malika.
He hated seeing her crying.
He hated how desperate he had gotten her. He had promised to protect her and never make her cry but here they were with her tear-stained face and messy hair like she had been dying slowly.
"You heard me. If you won't go after that stupid ex of yours, if you won't avenge me and child, then I will do it. I will go to those seven you talked of. Even if I have to sell my soul to them, I will.
"If that is all I need to take that woman down, I will make her parents feel that they made me feel. I will burn them all and no one will save them so think carefully husband, because I could take your army from you.
"Remember I am just the Luna who they watched be ripped apart. As it is, the statistics will favor me. I may be weak, husband, but I'm not stupid. Clean that mess husband, or I will clean it for you –
"–And I will take your pack while at it," Malika warned angrily as she wiped the furious tears from her face. To say Jer was shocked would be an understatement. He had never expected his wife to do this to him.
He had never imagined that she would be this angry, but even he knew that the soft ones were always the worst when they got angry and this time, Malika was that angry.
His ex had taken something from him, something that she had held onto, something that she had endured and now there was nothing left. She had to fill that emptiness somehow and if attacking the Alpha's ex was it, then meek Malika would do it.
"I will do it, baby. I will do whatever it takes to get revenge for you. I will get my hands dirty for you, but you must promise me you don't hurt yourself or think of going for vengeance on your own, please.
"I can't see you hurt again, I can't. How can be the reason you get hurt, I love you too much to see you in pain, Malika. Please promise me," Jer begged as he carefully stayed on the bed and pushed himself towards Malika.
He knew she was mad and had every right, but she wanted her to take care of herself. He would do the heavy lifting. He would protect her like he had sworn on their wedding day. He would do everything for her.
"Husband—"
"Please, Malika. Please promise me. Swear on my life that you won't go after her, sweat it, baby. Promise me you won't hurt yourself because of this," Jer pleaded. He wanted her happy and he would try and make it happen, no matter what he had to do.
"But—" Malika began as she looked away from Jer. She was doing so well playing the weak mate and it was interesting how the Alpha was easily convinced, pathetic even.
"Promise me."
"I promise," Malika said after a long silence, before she leaned on her husband and continued the long charade of tears.
"I swore to protect you, and that is what I will do. I swear it again, baby. I will do it," Jer said once he managed to put Malika to sleep.