Fulfilling my Lustful Fantasies

Chapter 25: Clear Mind

-Lucielle POV-

"Mom, I'll be going to Teacher now okay? Byeeee~" Maelriel said after standing up on his tippy-toes as he tried to give me a peck on lips

Seeing him act so cutely, I put on a gentle smile as I pat his body to check that he is all set before he goes over to that woman's place.

"Okay, sweetie. Stay safe okay?" I said once I confirmed that all his clothes are neat and tidy, before sending him off with a wave

When I finally saw him leave, I went near the sofa before plummeting down. I felt like it took all of my energy to keep a straight face this morning. To be honest when I woke up, I didn't even want to move from the bed nor did I have the energy to cook breakfast. But the day waits for no one, so I had to move despite not wanting to at all. Luckily Celine leaves pretty early for her training, so it's only Maelriel that I had to wait for.

"Ugh. What" I said as I mindlessly stared into the thin air

The moment I woke up, I just felt like I just wanted to disappear. Not like commit suicide, but more like spontaneously get removed from existence. Once the sexual high of having your innocent son unknowingly pleasure you is gone, and the reality that you just had your innocent son unknowingly pleasure you sets in, I really don't want to curse, but I know I'm in deep shit right now.

It's funny how the same thing when you look at it again, once the horny glasses is removed, can be so different. Last night I was getting off, from the fact that my clueless son was doing things to me that he should be only doing to his future wife. I thought of how his wife would be so happy and content with her husband, completely oblivious to the fact that it is his Mommy that he loves the most.

The feeling of immorality came to me, and I would be a liar if I said that I didn't feel good that time. The immoral feeling of a forbidden relationship as well as the physical pleasure combined, set me on a sexual high. However now that my mind is clear, I just feel empty inside. We're mother and son, such a pure relationship sullied for one night's pleasure. Yeah I got off, but at what cost?

"Aaaggh someone end me" I said as I rolled over and planted my face on the sofa

I can't even think about Celine's scholarship right now. All I can think of is how would I give him 'the talk' now. I could only imagine his reaction when-

'You see Riel, you remember what your Mom made you do when you were a kid? Yeah that's sex and you should only do that with your wife. Hehe XD'

"Nooooo Aaaaghh..." I curled myself into a ball as I held my hair with my hands. I feel that if I don't hold it right now, my hair would just fall off from all the stress that I feel and I'll end up bald. Heck, if being bald could get me out of this situation, then I'll start buying hats for preparation right now.

Well we haven't crossed the final line yet, so there's that I guess. But still, he'll surely remember the pleasure and experience from last night. I remember he came last night, so he must've felt really good. If he starts to get addicted to it, without knowing what it really is and it's consequences, he might just go down a terrible road.

"Ugghh why" just imagining my cute little baby growing up, indulging himself on whores, being led around by worthless women who can only shake their hips, I felt like crying.

I'm now back into my original position as I started staring mindlessly at the ceiling once more, as the consequences of what I just did slowly crept into my mind. My limbs were sprawled all over the place, I didn't even mind that I look like a useless bum, as I remembered myself willingly swallowing my son's cum like a lowly whore.

What dignity? What image? What Virtue? If I tell him about sex after what just happened, all those would be gone. Like they never even existed, all his respect for his mother, down the drain.

'How do I fix this? Ugh there is also Celine's scholarship' I felt like I just wanted to go back to sleep, even though I just woke up about an hour earlier.

-Maelriel POV-

I was walking to Aerin's place, as I remembered what happened last night. I couldn't help but be satisfied. I just 'conquered' one of my mother's three holes, when I shot my load deep in her mouth. Jerking off was nothing compared to that. As I felt my dick start to stand up again, I thought of old men dancing naked as to not get myself distracted for my lessons later.

I also thought of Sister's scholarship. If she was to go to War School, then our time together would be reduced. I don't know how long elven studies take since I can't use my time in Earth as a reference. After all our lifespan is way longer compared to that of a human's.

There was also the problem that Sis would be interacting a lot more with other people, and there is a chance that she'll discover about sex by herself. Though I don't think she'll think that I was harassing her all this years, after all I made sure to put on my 'innocent' persona everytime I did something.

But there is a chance that she'll start to set a line between us, and I don't want that. Mom said that we still have a few months, so I still have some time to make some adjustments. When does school start here anyways?

Winter has yet to arrive, so if Mom said it was 'in a few months'. I don't think it starts on autumn then. I'll just ask them later. I need to focus on my lessons later. Aerin is now giving me voice practice actually, I couldn't help but feel like a more complete person now compared to my previous life. You know like someone with actual interests and personality. Someone that has an actual hobby that I could spend my free time on.

Last life I spent too much time worrying about school, so it was good that this time I was being more productive with my time. I'm enjoying having experiments about magic as well, I was making some slow progress but it's still progress nonetheless. I felt like I was writing an actual research paper, not the ones I made for my course requirements. But the ones great scientists did when they published their life's work and efforts. Something they had an actual interest and passions about.

Thinking of such things I made my way near Aerin's place.

I was already set on the way I should approach Aerin. I remembered some of the Master-Disciple relationship novels that I have read before. The ones where the disciple falls in love with his/her master because of the genuine love and care that they received. I even had the backstory down already.

My father was gone, and I am a child starving for someone's love. Though Mom and Sis loves me a lot of course, Teacher doesn't know that. I'm not too sure as well, but I have a slight feeling that Mom and Sis is not that fond of Aerin. So I don't think they'd start interacting that much, for Teacher to find out about the real state of our home.

Of course, all of this is tentative and I might change the plans depending on the circumstances or if I find a better one. But for now this'll do, so from now on Teacher Aerin is my childhood 'first love'. I don't want to get too deep into acting and make the impression that I'm in a terrible household. So I'll just act like my time with her is the ones where I'm happy the most. So even if she sees how our family really is, she'll have the idea that I prefer her company more.

[Ok, Let's do this!] I gave myself some mental encouragement, as I knocked the door on Aerin's place.

"Um, Teacher I'm here~" I said cheerfully, before I heard footsteps approach the door.

"Welcome~" Aerin greeted me with a smile before she let me inside, as we start our usual day once again.