Chapter 203: Chapter 125: Yao Mingyue's Confession, My Childhood Sweetheart Mr. Bamboo Horse. (Xiao Wan asks for subscriptions!)_4
Anyway, as long as they ended up together, he would gradually make up for what he once owed her... Having each other was enough for them.
This thought persisted up until two months ago.
But everything changed with Xu Musen's sudden transformation.
He seemed to become a different person overnight, and even when he looked at her, there was an indescribable… deliberate distance.
Yao Mingyue felt as though her heart was fiercely grasped, squeezing out all the security she had accumulated over the years.
Especially when that girl named An Nuannuan appeared, taking the positions and favoritism that should have belonged to her...
They used to go shopping, dine, watch movies, commute to and from school together, do so many things together...
His life seemed unchanged, it was just that the person by his side was no longer her.
In that instant, she felt like a dandelion swaying in the wind, not knowing where to drift.
"Fold the wish into a paper airplane and send it as a letter, because we can't wait for that shooting star.
Flip a coin seriously to decide our fate, yet not knowing where to go..."
Yao Mingyue's voice carried a sourness, tears sparkling in her eyes, an indescribable emotion enveloping everyone present.
Everyone looked at the girl under the spotlight, dressed in an exquisite gown, like a graceful swan.
She was meant to shine the brightest, to be treasured and held in the palm of one's hand.
But with those two lines, she resembled an abandoned kitten that couldn't wait for its owner's return, nor for the shooting star to make a wish upon.
Wandering around the crossroads, not knowing where to go…
This girl, strong all her life, was actually more fragile inside than anyone else, seemingly having numerous choices.
But in her world, there had never been a multiple-choice question, only a narrative essay yearning for security.
"Damn it! Who made such a girl sad, they truly deserve to die!"
"Sob, it hurts just listening to it, such a good girl, what has she been through..."
In the audience, many watched Yao Mingyue under the spotlight, her eyes seemingly laced with tears.
It was as if they had already conjured up a tragic and regretful ending to a childhood-friends-turned-lovers drama.
Xu Musen was silent; looking at Yao Mingyue, his heart, sealed with concrete, felt uneasy.
Yes, with the memories of his past life, he felt he no longer owed her and could leave nonchalantly.
But what about her?
If he left, what would happen to her?
Xu Musen watched her for a long time.
He wouldn't gamble this life's ending, but perhaps there was another path that would be good for both of them…
Just like the lyrics of the song.
"The promise of growing up together, so clear.
I believe in the oath we made.
We agreed to travel together, that's the only stubbornness you hold onto..."
No matter what, when the two of them snuggled together, becoming each other's support, that sincerity was the most pristine and pure.
Before any problems arose, their families would go on trips together.
But after the bankruptcy and hard times, Xu Musen would help out at home during summer vacations.
Yao Mingyue, though having time and money, felt safe only by Xu Musen's side.
Therefore, she too rarely went out, and Xu Musen, in his naivety, would even express envy that Yao Mingyue, despite having money, didn't travel more.
He also said that once they both had money, they would go out together.
The two of them dreamed together of visiting many places, with the seaside being their most desired destination, which was why they went to Hu Hai University in their previous life.
But now...
Yao Mingyue's heart was sour; just yesterday, when she wanted to visit the waterfront with him, it took certain conditions to make it possible.
What once was easily within reach was now becoming more and more distant... so distant that she was starting to lose clarity.
All those promises from the past now felt like dandelion seeds scattered by the wind, disappearing with just a blow...
Yet Yao Mingyue wasn't left with nothing.
She could feel that there was still a place for her somewhere in Xu Musen's heart.
He was considering and worrying about certain things happening.
She thought of the words Xu Musen had said to her.
If the two of them truly came together, even if they really married, would she really gain the security she sought?
Would being together truly bring them the happiness they desired?
Just as he had said, in truth, neither of them understood love.
The identity of childhood friends was a kind of confidence as well as a curse.
It was like guarding a gold mine, yet lacking the correct key to unlock its gates.
There are, in fact, many keys to unlocking the door of love.
"Appearance" "Personality" "Family" "Dependence"...
Perhaps they already possessed these elements, but their feelings were intermingled.
They shopped together, ate together, attended school and returned home together, watched movies together, and celebrated every festival together, even spending New Year's Eve together, sometimes even sharing a room, a bed...
They already understood each other more than some couples did.
Often, they cared for and liked each other even more than a couple.
However, they too had become unclear: was it the pledged friendship between them, or a vague love...
But these seemed to be slowly drifting away from her, from them.
Like the petals on a dandelion, once tightly bunched together, yet scattered in all directions with a gust of wind.